Instead Of A Show - John Foreman

New Creation - Leeland

Standing at the gate of love
Waiting for the life of the Son
To follow me 'til I am undone

Oh, you pulled me out of the mud
Up from the miry clay
You washed all my sins away
I've been redeemed

I am a new creation
I have been born again

I'm here in the world
But my home is in a heavenly place
Far above the stars out in space
I'm not afraid

Death where is your sting
Hell will never conquer me
A love pure and holy
Has set me free

And I am a new creation
I have been born again

I am a new creation
I have been born again

For behold! The old has passed away!
There's a hole inside of me
And I'll never run away from you!
Anymore, anymore

I am a new creation
I have been born again

I am a new creation
I have been born again

The old has passed away and the new has come!

I am a new creation
I have been born again!

Via Dolorosa - Way of Suffering

Start Freedom

November 4th, 2009

Franklin - Paramore

you remind me of a time when we were so alive...

do you remember that?

Hey Ocean! - Fish

$2 Halloween costume, awesome!

I'll Fight - REmix!

While guys and girls snort, swallow, sniff, shoot and smoke tons of drugs like they do now, I’LL FIGHT
While young punks swarm, curb stomp and bully others like they do now, I’LL FIGHT
While kids, teens and young adults cut and self-injure as they do now, I’LL FIGHT

While cliques are more concerned with their appearance and making money more than caring for others, as they do now, I’LL FIGHT
While adults physically, emotionally, verbally & sexually abuse youth, as they do now, I’LL FIGHT

While sex is freely given away to boyfriends & girlfriends,
While teens check out porn & young adults are engaged in sexual promiscuity,
While getting hammered, partying and clubbing is a generation’s choice and source of fun, while there remains one young dark soul without the light of God,

I’LL FIGHT… I’LL FIGHT to the very end!

Psalm 142

I cry aloud to the LORD;
I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.

I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.

When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.

Look to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.

I cry to you, O LORD;
I say, "You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living."

Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.

Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.

DeviantArt

Saskatchewan

So i'm ACTUALLY here! I'm in Saskatchewan! I've been here for a week now and things are just starting to pick up. Starting to hand out resumes and get used to my surroundings! I spent last weekend at Beaver Creek camp for their Youth Councils weekend and I was seriously blown away... Mark Hall (our new TYS) was the main speaker for the weekend, and he told it like it is. He delivered a straight forward message that really showed it's impact when almost all of the 39 kids that attended were at the mercy seat on the last day asking for forgiveness and leaving past sin behind them. The whole weekend was called "FREE"... no, it DID cost money to go, but the whole weekend was based on Human Trafficking and modern day slavery... We did an amazing freedom walk where the kids went through a series of stations about trafficking and slavery. I really think that they got something out of it, because during the hour walk, my group hardly said one word. I'm pretty sure this is one of the most powerful Youth Councils I've been to in a long time. The Lord moved in AMAZING ways, and I think God has a huge plan for the youth in Saskatchewan and Manitoba. Everywhere I look I see potential for great leadership and discipleship. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me here.

Run - Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Nanaimo

So I'm extremely bad at this blogging thing, mostly because I feel like I have nothing constructive to say in these little spaces, because everyone knows what I'm doing already because of facebook, twitter, or just actually talking to me personally. But I know there are a few people that actually check blogs stilll... so Caitlyn, this is for you. I've been in Nanaimo for a while now, and to tell you the truth it's weird, being back with my friends here, doing what we used to do all the time.... Josh and Courtney are here this week which is really exciting that I get to see them. I really do miss Vancouver and everything and everyone there, I know I'll be back there in the future. At the same time I'm super excited for Saskatoon, to see everyone there when I get there, The Rands, Josh, Sarah, Rin, Steph... I'm stoked to see everyone and to start my life in a new province.. We'll see if I can survive the winter though! haha. It's going to be hard leaving BC, but I know it's not permanent and I know that I will be back. So I'm not going to let it be as hard as it has to be... I'm going to be positive and I'm going to make it enjoyable!


well, im boring myself
BYE.

OH YEAH! I'm flying to Saskatoon now, not driving.

QB + Rusty

Mission: Saskatoon

So I seem to be terrible at this blogging thing. I haven't even been journalling lately either..UGH! Crazy. A LOT of things have changed in the past couple weeks in a really dramatic way... first things first... I'm moving to Saskatoon! surprise! (I guess if you read my blog you would already know from some other way anyways...). Here's the story of WHY (since everyone wants to know!). I was told that I was going to be helping out at the music camp at Beaver Creek in Saskatoon, and of course I was extremely nervous. I was going to a camp where I knew absolutely no one and I didn't like that. Almost immediately I clicked with Shelly Rands, who I was counselling the oldest girls with for the week. She was very very nice as soon as I met her, and we became friends that instant. Within 2 days I felt like I had been there for years. Everyone who was there was amazing, including the kids, who put up with me when I didn't know where anything was! I have never met a group of people who have impacted my life so much in a week.... Shelly was talking about different opportunities to do ministry in Saskatoon and I got really excited! After thinking and praying and thinking and praying and after making some hard decisions... I decided that moving to Saskatoon was the right thing to do. So, I started making plans... and here is my plan if I haven't told you yet

*Take the bus back to BC on August 8th
*Graduate War College on August 22nd, and stay in Vancouver for a week or so.
*Go home to Nanaimo for 2 or 3 weeks, and hang out with my family (also have a job at the coffee shop for 3 weeks!)
*And at the end of September, we're loading up my Dad's Van and heading out to Saskatoon!

I'm so excited and I can't wait to get out here and to start my life in a new place. and I'm SO EXCITED that I'm going on a roadtrip with my dad! how awesome is that!!?!

I love you all SO much and I'm going to miss you! ♥

FORT WALSH, FTW!

Adventures in Saskatchewan!

Hey there!...anyone who reads this.. (probably no one..) If I haven't talked to you, heres a quick update on what im currently doing! I'm spending the bulk of my summer in Saskatchewan with the Ramsay family (who are awesome!). Im currently in Nipawin, but the family is moving to Swift Current in a week, so I'm going with them! Saskatchewan is WAY different than BC, no mountains, no ocean! I do miss Vancouver and all my sessionmates, but I know Ill see them again soon. There's lots of great people here and theyre all willing to talk and to carry a conversation! Im really excited about going to music camp at Beaver Creek! I've never been to another Salvation Army camp before, so that will be a good expirience!

Oh well..
if you know me.. text me!
Love and Blessings, Carlye

Bowies In Space

Leeland - Brighter Days

Time keeps moving on
Through the sunshine and the storm
And my dreams are set in stone
And someday I’ll be who I want to be
For now I’ll wait 
For the sun to shine again
And for now I’ll wait 
For the rain to pass away

And I’m looking for the brighter days
When all my hurts seem to fade away
I’m looking for the brighter days to come my way

Faces come and faces go 
But none seem to look my way
And walls have stood and walls have fallen
But my heart seems to wait
For now I’ll sit at the end of the road
And for now I’ll wait 
At the end of the pathway

I’ll see the sun one day shine upon me
I’ll see the sun one day
And watch the nighttime turn to morning
But for now it all comes back around

Stones by Kester Brewin

Before plants, before animals, before fish;
after light, but yes, many days before you,
He called us up from the sea.

Hard and strong,
we were the firstborn of all creation,
not you - soft, malleable, pliable, always yielding,
you who were created from our very dust.

We remained silent then.
You inhaled his breath, tried to forget your roots,
trod on us, though you knew our primacy.
We were your quarry;
You dug us out, cut us and piled us up.
We were your weapons;
thrown in anger, from sweating palms,
boiling blood with merciless indignation.

But no more:
He came.

He came, and refused to turn us to bread.
He came, and said only the sinless could hurl us.
He came, and knew that if you,
with your language and art and religion did not,
then we would cry out.

Now we cry out:

He came and you killed him.
The true cornerstone, the foundation,
came and you ground him down and trod him like dust,
back into the earth, forgetting your roots,
and cast him to us, rolled up and sealed
in an opening we had prepared.

For three days we kept silence.
But then cried out:
No! We refused to hold him.

No soldiers had to heave that stone,
nor was it that the earth could not hold him;
simply that it would not.
You buried the creator, and we pushed him back,
this God-man that gave us form and strength.

So speak now, you breath-filled creatures of dust.
Sing now of the miracle of your supple lives,
or we, the stones, will cry more,
as you are lowered to us in your caskets,
and hold you until the day that you do.

One Day Without Shoes... can you do it?

I Will Follow You Into The Dark...

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark


by: Death Cab For Cutie

I am the planet. You are the sun

NEW TERM! New Classes! New beginnings!
I seriously can't believe I'm starting my last term at the War College! I don't even feel like I've been here THAT long, yet I feel like I'm a completely different person. I do definitely miss Nanaimo at times, but I love my new life here in Vancouver. I love my community, I love my session mates, and I love the place I'm in right now. Summer assignment soon! whoa! this is all happening so fast! I've been waking up at about 6 every morning for a little bit now (for those of you who know me really well, you're probably shocked) It definitely sucks, but I figure if I get myself into a schedule It will eventually get easier for me (even though I love sleeping in so much) I can do so much more in the morning, and I feel good about it. The War College is giving me 4 days off for the Easter Weekend, but I haven't decided if I'm going to go home just yet. I still might just stay here for the 4 days off... because I haven't done that before. Maybe Ill go 2 nights or something like that, who knows. Anyways, better head off to bed.. (waking up at 6am tomorrow!)

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Sow for yourselves righteousness,
reap the fruit of unfailing love,
and break up your unplowed ground;
for it is time to seek the LORD,
until he comes
and showers righteousness on you.
Hosea 10:12

Me, Myself and I

Enter This Temple - Leeland

We are saved in a world that’s lost
All our hope rests in Your Cross
God of strength, our weakness shows
We need You
We need You, Lord

Father, enter this temple
Come touch Your people
We need to be where You are
And children living as their Father
Washed in pure water
We need to be like You are

We are searching for Your presence
We are knocking on Your door
Let Your wings cover us with promise
For communion
For communion

To be like You are
To be where You are
Father, come touch Your people

To be where You are
To be like You are

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I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.
The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God,
who loved me and gave himself for me.
Galatians 2:20

Underoath = March 7, 2009

The other night was the one of the best nights of my life. I had a chance to meet my most FAVORITE band. Me and a couple of my friends went to go see Underoath, Norma Jean, and Innerpartysystem. We ended up sitting next to one of the members of Underoath who happened to remember us from the last time they played in Vancouver (awesome!). Caitlyn wanted him to record her voicemail again because It got lost. Their set was completely amazing. Its an interesting feeling worshipping surrounded by non-believers. The Lord was definitely there. They played a lot of old songs, so there were a lot of people screaming the lyrics, and moshing (definitely fun). After their set was over we made it to the alley in the back of the theatre and waited for them to come out... they were all freezing cold because they just finished a tour in Australia... but now theyre in the blistering Canadian weather. ANYWAYS.. We ended up talking to all of them and telling them that the Lord was definitely there. We got a chance to pray for Chris, and to pray for Underoath and their tour that there would be fruit and that they would be humble...After we talked to Chris and the other members of the band, we got pictures and all that fun stuff...He invited us out for pizza...so we met up at the pizza place and Josh ended up talking to Aaron about their tour, and Caitlyn mentioned that their music helped her through a lot of things in her life, and they were very authentic.

It's cool because usually when you meet "famous" people, they want nothing to do with you. It's cool to see a humble group of guys that are into following Christ and making him known to the world! Keep on truckin'!

Utter boredom

Part 1: How I Came To Be

Were you a planned baby?: Yesm
Were you the first?: Sure was, the first and the favorite!
Were your parents married when you were born?: Sure were
When is your birthday?: August 19th, 1989


Part 2: My Family

How would you describe your family?: dramatic/funny
Are your parents married, divorced or separated?: divorced
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?: Oldest
Did you wish you had any other siblings?: younger sister
Which parent do you get along with best?: My momma
Do you have step parents?: Sure do.

Part 3: The Friends

Do you have more than one best friend?: Yes sir, gotta love em
Do you share the same interests?: Some
Which friend can you tell anything to?: Hard to say...
Whos the shyest friend you have?: Courtney is super shy when she first meets someone
Whos the funniest friend you have?: Caitlyn, and my Conq's
Who can always make you laugh?: see above

Part 4: Your Personality

How high/low is your self esteem?: Its good
Do you get depressed about things easily?: Sometimes, depends what mindset I'm in.
Are you happy?: Yes, I am!
Do you live life to the fullest?: I try my best
Do you regret anything?: I try to have no regrets, but it's hard
Are you funny?: I like to think so
Are you shy?: Depends on the situation
Are you loud? I'm loud when I want to be...


Part 5: Appearance

Are you comfortable with the way you look?: Yeap
Do you have any piercings besides your ears?: Lip, Both nostrils, tongue web, navel
How do you dress?: Not like anyone else I've seen...
What colour is your hair?: RED!
What colour are your eyes?: greenish
Do you wear makeup?: when I can...

Part 6: The Past

Were you a strange child?: I wouldn't doubt it.
Were there people you used to love that you no longer do?: No, I don't think so.
Do you have the same friends?: From school? No.
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?: Probably.

Part 7: The Future

Ambition?: Happiness and Love (hipppiiieeee)
Do you want to have kids?: Yes, yes I do.. So i can be my own baby hog.
How many?: 2ish
What would you like to name them?: Not sure yet.

Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: cold weater = indoors, warm weather = outdoors
What is your favorite season?: SUMMER
Favorite weather?: SUNNY HOT
Do you like walking in the rain?: no, my hair curls

Part 9: Food
Are you a vegetarian?: Heck no, I love bacon too much
What is your favorite food?: SUSHI!
What food makes you want to gag?: cooked spinach
What is your favorite dessert?: Cheescake
What is your favorite restaurant?: I love Red Robin
Are you a fussy eater: I can be, but usually not. I won't complain.

Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?: Single
If taken who is the lucky boy/girl?: see above
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?: Love is great.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: No.

It's fun, It made me LOL

1. Go to google.ca
2. Click on Maps.
3. Click on Get Directions.
4. From: New York, New York.
5. To: Paris, France.
6. Then, read line #21.

Freedom - Run Kid Run

Oh my chains, I can't disengage
I don't believe that I want to
One hand sings your praise
The other brings me shame
I have selfishness to blame

And I'm singing for freedom,
I know I'm not the only one praying to the One,
Who can bring me this freedom,
I'm ready for change, change, change, change

Looking down I lay
I keep holding my chains
No longer bound but here I stay
I scream, Father please, I need rescuing
I need and you alone

And I'm singing for freedom
I know I'm not the only one praying to the one
Who can bring me this freedom
I'm ready for, I'm ready for

Still You patiently await
Yet I won't just let go
I see You and You alone
Saying come, follow me
Dispair has come so You can see, release

So I'm singing for freedom
So I'm singing for freedom

The time has come-separation lost the war to love
Take my hand, grace is found, yeah where Your words begin,
You're alive, You're alive, in the waking of new life,
Take my hand, in the end there's only love, there's only love

There's only singing for freedom
I know I'm not the only one praying to the One
Who can bring me this freedom
I'm ready for, I'm ready for
Father please, I need rescuing
I need You and You alone

This is my worship....

So I've been spending some time in the war room lately, and it's really really awesome. I had a shift this morning from 5-8am, and I definitely was not in the right head space and I actually didn't really want to pray at all. I got into the war room and just wanted to sleep as soon as I could. I had this really weird feeling that I should go to the stairs (which took a lot of motivation seeing as I was laying on the other side of the room...) ANYWAYS. I got up and went and looked outside and Leslie was standing at the bottom of the stairs (Leslie is one of my good friends down here, and I hadn't seen her in a while and was a little worried...) It was crazy because she had told me that she had a dream about me but apparently didn't have time to tell me about it because she had to go get her methadone... All day these coincidences have been happening. God has been showing himself to me in the physical, and it's fantastic to see that.
I'm heading home to Nanaimo in about...4ish days.. Im going on Sunday to spend some time at home (we have a week long reading break), and I'm really excited to see Michelle and other people on the island. My cousins are planning to come see me because I didn't even get to see them at Christmas which was weird. Pray for me to keep up my disciplines at home, because it's really easy to fall away when you have no accountability. So if I could ask that from you (anyone who reads this and has my cell phone #/facebook) PLEASE. Ask me if im doing rations, ask me how my book is, ask me what God is saying to me. I have a habit of not listening when I'm at home because there's so much to distract me from everything that has grown in me since being here.

Be Blessed
xoxo Carlye

The Vision - Pete Greig

So this guy comes up to me and says,
"whats the vision? whats the big idea?"
i opened my mouth and the words came out like this...
The vision?
The vision is Jesus:
obsessively, dangerously, undeniably JESUS.
The vision is an army of young people.
You see bones?
I see an army.
And they are free from materialism-- they laugh at 9-5 little
prisons. They could eat caviar on Monday, and crusts
on Tuesday they wouldn't even notice. They know the
meaning of the matrix,
the way the west was won.
They are mobile like the wind,
they belong to the nations,
they need no passport.
People who write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their
strange existence.
They are free
yet they are slaves
of the hurting, dirty, and dying.
What is the vision? the vision is holiness that hurts the eyes.
It makes children laugh and adults angry.
It gave up the game of minimum integrity a long time ago to reach
for the stars.
it scorns the good, and strains for the best.
It is dangerously pure.
Light Flickers
from every secret motive,
every private conversation.
It loves people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan
games.
This is an ARMY
that would lay down its life for the cause
A million times a day
its soldiers choose to lose that they might one day win in the great
"well done"
of faithful sons and daughters.
Such heroes are as radical
on Monday morning as Sunday night.
They don't need fame for names.
Instead they grin quietly upwards
and hear the crowds chanting again and again:
"COME ON!"
And this is the sound of the underground, the whisper of
history in the making, foundations shaking ,revolutionaries
dreaming once again.
Mystery is scheming in whispers, conspiracy is breathing...
This is the sound of the underground
And the army is disciple(in)ed -- young people who can beat their
bodies into submission. Every soldier would take a bullet
for his comrade at arms. The tattoo on their backs boasts
"for me to live is Christ and to die is gain"
Sacrifice fuels the fire
of victory in their upward eyes.
Winners.
Martyrs.
Who can stop them? Can hormones hold them back? Can
failure succeed?
Can fear scare them or death kill them?
And the generation prays
like a dying man who groans beyond
talking, with warrior cries,
sulfuric tears and
great barrow loads of laughter!
Waiting.
Watching:
24-7-365
Whatever it takes they will give:
Breaking the rules,
shaking mediocrity from its cozy little hide,
laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs.
laughing at labels,
fasting essentials.
The advertisers cannot mold them.
Hollywood can not hold them
Peer Pressure is powerless
to shake their resolve
at late-night parties
before the cockerel cries.
They are incredibly cool,
dangerously attractive (on the inside).
on the outside? they hardly care!
They wear clothes like costumes:
to communicate and celebrate but never hide.
Would they surrender their image and popularity? They
would lay down their very lives, swap seats with the man
on death row, guilty as hell:
a throne for the electric chair.
With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights
and fruitless days,
they pray as if it all depends on God and live if it all
depends on them.
Their DNA chooses Jesus
(He breathes out, they breathe in).
Their subconscious sings.
They had a blood transfusion with Jesus.
Their words make demons scream in shopping malls. Don't
you hear them coming?
Herald the weirdos!
Summon the losers and the freaks.
Here come the frightened and forgotten
with fire in their eyes!
They walk, and trees applaud,
skyscrapers bow,
mountains are dwarfed
by these children of another dimension.
Their prayers summon the Hound of Heaven and invoke the
ancient dream of Eden
And this vision will be.
It will come to pass;
It will come easily;
It will come soon.
How do i know?
Because this is the longing of creation itself, the groaning of
the Spirit, the very dream of God.
Tomorrow is His today.
My distant hope is His 3-D.
And my feeble,
whispered,
faithless prayer
invokes a thunderous
resounding,
bone-shaking
great "AMEN!"
from countless angels,
from heroes of the faith.
from Christ Himself.
And He is the original dreamer,
the ultimate winner,
Guaranteed.

Stained Glass Masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feeling so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Well if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Watch Me On The News!!

http://www.globaltv.com/globaltv/bc/microsites/phoenix/index.html

It's the clip called "Project Lockstep"

Journal Entry from Jan 7th

I found this journal entry from Jan 7th (it says 4am, harsh) and I really thought I should type it out so more people than just me could see it.

"Wow! what a change of pace! I finally realized why I can't sleep and I'm a total idiot! This year is going to be fantastic. It's a year of new beginnings, new life and REVIVAL. This year is about advancing in faith and in obidience to the Lord, it's about showing your authentic self to him and everyone around you (be real with yourself) If you're covering up yourself with a mask, how will people see Jesus in you or anyone else? How will they see the immense shining light pouring out of your heart and soul?
At pray the bible today God really convicted me about neglecting his word and how I need to really dive into him and the word fully and really expirience who he is.

Father I pray that you would bring new life and new motivation for the conquerors session. I pray that we would all be washed completely clean and able to start a new year off right. Father I pray for myself that you would give me clarity of mind, I pray that I would understand how I'm feeling and I wouldn't be afraid to let people know how I feel. Yahweh, you are holy and blameless, thank-you for everything you have given us, and everything you WILL give us. You are the one true God."

Fling out the banner!

For the first time in a while, God has been filling my head with things to say and things to do... fancy that! I have this book called "Beautiful Poems on Jesus" it's a really old book and uses a lot of old language, but I'm totally in love with it, and most of the time find it hard to even put it down (which, if you know me.. would be suprised) Anyways, I came across this poem, and God really showed me that it was something that needed to be shared with my session, so I thought I should blog it aswell, because you know... blogging is good.

The Banner Of The Cross by Bishop Doane
Fling out the banner! Let it float.
Skyward ans seaward, high and wide;
The sun that lights its shining folds
The cross on which the Savior died.

Fling out the banner! Angels bend,
In anxious silence, o'er the sign;
And vainly seek to comprehend
The wonder of the love divine.

Fling out the banner! Heathen lands
Shall see from far the glorious sight,
And nations, crowding to be born,
Baptize their spirits in its light.

Fling out the banner! Sin-sick souls,
That sink and perish in the strife
Shall touch in faith its radiant hem,
And spring immortal into life.

Fling out the banner! Let it float.
Skyward and Seaward, high and wide
Our glory only in the cross;
Our only hope, the Crucified

Fling out the banner! Wide and high,
Seaward and Skyward, let it shine;
Nor skill, nor might, nor merit ours;
We conquer only in that sign.

It really reminded me that there is no way we can truly be conquerors unless we are paired up with the almighty, because there is absolutely no way that we could do all this in our own strength. We are under the banner of Christ, and we conquer only in that sign.

moi.

Too Bright To See, Too Loud To Hear

Good God, if your song leaves our lips
If your work leaves our hands
Then we will be wonders and vagabonds
They will stare and say how empty we are
How the freedom we had turned us up as dead men
Let us be cold, make us weak
Let us, because we all have ears
Let us, because we all have eyes
How they knew that this would happen
We're so run down
Good God! Can you still get us home...
How can we still get home
I'm not dreaming
We're forgetting our forgiveness

Rest & Relaxation

My break is coming to an end here in Nanaimo, and I will be heading back to Vancouver on Tuesday morning!.... This has been an interesting two weeks. Being home for such a long time has been both good and bad. I started swearing more, which is so weird, and I don't like it at all... I guess I just started talking like everyone around me. I feel dissconnected from my sessionmates, and I can't wait to have that back. I had mixed emotions coming here, and I'm leaving with them aswell. Home is weird now. Not the same as it used to be. I don't have things here, I don't have a bed, I don't have a room, I don't have anything. Vancouver is my home. Vancouver is where my heart is, and I think that's why I feel so discontent here.
Of course the temptation of quitting war college has been there, that was inevitable. But of course, I'm not listening to those lies that life will be easier if I just stay here, If i just quit everything.

I need prayer for perseverance, motivation, and a hunger and thirst for the presence of God, and his word.

I seem to think this situation is pretty dior.