Better is one day...

My heart and flesh cry out

For You, the Living God
Your Spirit's water for my soul
I've tasted, and I've seen
Come once again to me
I will draw near to You..

Romans 12:1-2

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, In view of God's mercy,
to offer your bodies as living sacrifices. Holy and pleasing to God.
This is your spiritual act of worship.
Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world,
but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.
Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is.
His good, pleasing and perfect will.

Devastated

I don't know what to feel. I'm caught in this crappy range of emotion that goes from hysterical, to sad, to angry... Any random thing can make me burst into tears. People ask me to explain, but that just brings everything back to the surface. I want so bad to just forget everything and live my life, but i can't. I have to face this head on, with God by my side. To tell you the truth, i don't know what i'm going to do at night time now.... The thought of not talking to him breaks my heart, and i know that it will never be the same between us again...Like..right now if i were to look at a picture of him i would cry. I just want it to end, i just want everything to be ok. Thinking that im not that person to him anymore just tears me apart inside. I want to be with him. I want to be his first call. But I'm not. and it hurts.

well, i guess i've learned that tear ducts never empty.

Sound Of Melodies

Sound Of Melodies - Leeland

We who were called to be Your people
Struggling sinners and thieves
We’re lifted up from the ashes
And out came the song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed

Can you hear the sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God
The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God

We have caught a revelation
That nothing can separate us from
The love we received through salvation
It fills your daughters and your sons
Your daughters and your sons

The sound of Your love
The sound of Your love
Is what You’re hearing
The sound of Your sons
The sound of Your sons
You’ve won Your children
The sound of Your love
The sound of Your love
Is what You’re hearing
Your daughters in love
Your daughters in love
You’ve won your children

Every time i listen to this song, they holy spirit fills be with this....Joy, happiness that i just cant seem to keep quiet. I just love this song a freakin' lot.

This City Could Be Ours By Nightfall...

Our first dangerous service of the year was tonight, and i have to say it was the best we've done so far. Even though only like...10 people showed up it was still amazing. I was talking to some of the newer youth that have never been to dangerous or full circle or anything like that, and they were raving about how awesome it was and how they can't wait for the next one, which i was really stoked about. Oh, and Shawn couldn't even talk in the car because he was in so much shock. The Holy spirit was in the house! Praise Yahweh! Praise the Lord most high! Hallelujah! Hosanna in the highest!

In the midst of all of this excitement tonight something really dawned on me...
we're going to be o.k...

Carlye gets to see Josh in....

11 Days!

Jan 23rd, 12:54am, 2008

New New New! So much stuff has been going on in my life lately, and i don't regularly blog, i just wait a while in between so they have alot of stuff written in them! hah. Wild Truth is in full swing now until about April-May-ish. Danae is moving, and Shawn has officially stepped down as a youth pastor...So basically Katelyn and I are by ourselves running it, which is fine...I know we can do it. I found a correspondence school that i can use to get my psychology/social work schooling done. which im totally stoked about, because i can do it at my own pace and move around and not be tied down to a school. I'm also thinking about moving to Langley in September, but that's totally not set in stone and its something thats still being talked out amongst other people. As of tonight, im officially mentoring two of the younger girls in my church which im really really excited about because i absolutely love them to bits. I also love Josh to bits (how can i leave him out of this?). I love the way our relationship is, we can talk for hours and never really run out of things to say, and the fact that we have exactly the same sense of humor really helps (and freaks people out, but whatever) He's amazing, the best guy a girl could ask for. He makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the entire world.
Still don't have my drivers license (surprise? lol i think not) But I've got car insurance on my car, and I'm getting used to driving again so i can take my test and not have to take the bus anymore (thank God...lol) Nothing else is really new, other than I'm dealing with a lot of changes, and a lot more responsibility...

but the main fact is that I'm happy, and that's all that matters

i just kind of realized how bad at blogging i am, JULY 31st? who do i think i am? not that anyone reads this thing anyways..ill probably just forget about it and remember it in 3 years and laugh at everything i said (i did the same thing with my old livejournal..ask me for the link if you want to check it out...its a good laugh).
Anything new you ask? full time job, wild truth, boyfriend all that fun stuff. thinking about school? right now sorta, i don't know....school is boring. don't have my drivers license. i take the bus everywhere. I'm pretty much a bum and a half. Im planning on going to australia in september, but im not sure about that because everyone knows how my plans work out, haha. Hopefully i'll be able to make it for lisa's freaking wedding! i love her to bits. and i cant wait to see her and andy. ill be going for a month at least...and josh will be at the war college, so it will be something to help keep my mind off of that i guess?

now im just rambling.
night night

God of Justice, Saviour to all
Came to rescue the weak and the poor
Chose to serve and not be served

Jesus, You have called us
Freely we've received
Now freely we will give

We must go live to feed the hungry
Stand beside the broken
We must go
Stepping forward keep us from just singing
Move us into action
We must go

To act justly everyday
Loving mercy in every way
Walking humbly before You God

You have shown us, what You require
Freely we've received
Now freely we will give


Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out Lord

Spice Girls hit the stage in Vancouver on Dec 2nd.
I WANT TICKETS

mmhmm

wow. i am completely tuckered out.
tomorrow is my last shift in my set of 5, and i dont know how i'm going to deal with full time. I have never been this tired in my life. I can't go to sleep because my stepdad is having a party and theres people everywhere. I was babysitting until about 1am, and i have church at 9, then i work at 1pm until 5..and when i get home, i am instituting a lazy day for sunday after 6pm until the end of monday. if you would like to see me on monday, you have to be wearing pj's and i require an entrance fee of a tasty snack that can be shared by the both of us.
thank-you and goodnight.

SHAFSTON 09'
( yay or nay?)

8am

Starting work at 8am sucks.
I really liked the warehouse though. not having to deal with customers getting mad at me constantly. PLUS i get to see all the stuff before it goes out on the floor, which is pretty sweet i must say. I think ill work in the back when i start full time because the ladies back there are really nice. After work Shawn-H picked me up from work and we headed over to his house to babysit his kids. The night started with a lengthy conversation with Katie(2yrs old) about boats, balloons popping, and airplanes. She turned her mcdonalds cheeseburger into paste, (she only ate the pickles and the cheese). Emma(4yrs old) had swimming lessons, so while she was gone...caitlyn, katie and i played endless games of "ring around the rosie" and "squishing up my baby bumblebee". The night went as usual, emma making up games, and katie talking constant nonsense...but i would have to say the best moment of the night was when molly walked straight into the screen door. dazed and confused, molly looks around and realizes what she has done...and attempts to put the door back on. wow. I was laughing so hard i cried. We hung out with Shawn and Krista for a bit, and then Shawn drove us home. I called Colin and we talked for a little while. (we're totally BFF, by the way) i love him long time.
I have to work in 9 1/2 hours, so i should be heading to bed now
Grace

lol@caitlyns house

so last night and tonight were pretty fun filled.
Last night, it seemed like Caitlyn had taken all of the pills in her medicine cabinet, because she was acting like a complete psycho. The night was filled with comments like "no you're the walrus, no you're the war college" and then Caitlyn sitting there with a chair on her saying "look guys! the chair is sitting on ME". Then this morning we woke up and i took a million shifts at work, so at 8am tomorrow ill be processing shoes in the winners warehouse (yay!) Today was officially marked a lazy day.My mom called me and now apparently my name is "Carlye Spence". Michelle came home from camp and we made a fancy dinner of alfredo noodles and salad a la Caitlyn and Carlye. The we proceeded to karen travers' house where we played wii for about 2 and half hours, (i pwn at wii baseball by the way). Michelle ended up hitting the t.v with the wii controller and im pretty sure that i ate wayy too many baby carrots.
so im sitting here, i work in about 8 hours. and im totally not looking forward to it
but whatever.

australia?

so, the opportunity to go to school in Australia has been given to me.
and i really would like to do it... and i found this amazing college that I'm really interested in.
http://www.shafston.edu
its pretty sweet, and really accommodating for international students. I would probably be taking the Human Behavior, or the Nursing Course. Im just really stoked, and i really hope this happens..because Australia is pretty sweet.

good times.

lisa is FINALLY HERE, and i cant even explain how stoked i am.
and were not even doing stuff, we're just hanging out and its perfect.
I had a whole bunch of plans for us this weekend, but it just seems like its turned out better this way. Fireworks are tonight, and i wish a couple people were here, but i can deal with it i guess.
Im just totally excited that lisa is here
i love her alot.

yayayayyaa

so today has been pretty tiring so far.
woke up and got ready... went to the mall and bought some stuff
4 hours later me and molly just wanted to go home...
a day filled with stinky buses and mall goths.
but now LISA IS GETTING ON THE FERRY SOON
im sooo excited
but the weather here for bathtub weekend completely sucks, but were still going to have a blast.
basically i love life right now.

Holy Fire.

God, i just pray that you send your holy fire over camp sunrise, father.
Guard them with your spirit.
YHWH we pray that your power and love will triumph
Strength, Faith, Power and Wisdom, Lord.
Send your angels by the millions
Lord I pray for healing, for strength father
I pray that you cover these children with your blood, and your protection.
Death cant touch us.
this is your kingdom, and we are your children.
God, give them strength, courage, and unity Lord.


Matthew 10:1
He called his twelve disciples to him and gave them authority to drive out evil spirits and to heal every disease and sickness.

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Exodus 23:25
Worship the LORD your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you

sometimes clint is funny.

SendTheFire.ca - 24/7 Fuel for Life! says:
awww, poor clown. Who's laughing now?
SendTheFire.ca - 24/7 Fuel for Life! says:
nobody because it's not funny

Caitlyn got her tattoo today!
SO BEAUTIFUL